Waiting for a new arrival (by MJC)

I'm restless. I am not sleeping much, and when I finally do, I don't want to wake up in the morning and go to work. When I'm at work, my mind is distracted with the thought that the baby is due any minute. I do have a lot to do at work, but I find it very difficult to concentrate.

I've tried to make myself busy when I am up late. I straightened up our room and organized Libby's clothes by size. A pile for NB, a pile for 0-3 mos, a pile for 3-6 mos, etc. The smell of Dreft reminded me of how much I love the smell of a baby. I never realized it was the Dreft until last night as I took the clothes out of the dryer and caught a big whiff. Such a sweet smell, it made me anxious for her to be here already! A little girl. A daddy's girl.

At work today, after hours, I even spent time drafting the email I will send to my colleagues once the baby is born, in the few moments I will have to gain access to the internet when I peal myself away from Katy and the baby following the birth.

I can tell Harrison knows change is brewing. I step into the house and he starts scaling the furniture, hugging me, clinging to me, punching me. Whatever he can do to get attention, he is already doing it. I sure hope he doesn't feel any resentment towards the baby. So far, he has been excited about her coming, and nice to Libby inside Mommy's belly. I'm just afraid that the couple days of Mommy and Daddy being away at the hospital might make those feelings change towards pure jealousy. But I hope that's not the case.

I've been easing my restlessness with my addiction to facebook and Wii. So trendy of me, I know. But anything to keep my mind from worry and anxiety. So as I wait these next 2 or more weeks, send word of how you are doing. Because in a few weeks, I won't know anything else in the world exists besides my family.