The Last Day

Libby is definitely coming tomorrow. How weird is that? I know exactly when my daughter will come into the world. If I don't go into natural labor (chances are slim) by the morning, Libby will be delivered via C-section at 11:30 tomorrow morning.

My resolution to not be disappointed about having a C-section has been hard to keep. I just read my friend's blog about birthing her daughter and I felt a twinge of envy. It's hard to keep reminding myself that this does not make me less of a woman. That, in my situation, this is what's best for my daughter. That I tried my absolute best to avoid the procedure, but there were other plans.

We tried pretty much everything to induce labor. Walking and swimming everyday for hours, eating spicy food, squatting, doing lunges, Chinese food, etc... Maybe I should have scrubbed the kitchen floor...

Hmmmm. Where did I put that bucket?

Today after my pre-op appointment (blood work, meeting the anesthesiologist, getting a physical and answering medical history questions) I took Harrison to get some lunch and we had a picnic at the park. It was so much fun running (yes, the picture of pregnant me running is pretty funny) around and playing with Harrison in the beautiful weather. We stayed out for a couple of hours and until it was time to go home and take a nap. On the way back to the house we discussed what was going to happen when Mommy goes to the hospital.

Harrison's eyes widened when we spoke about Libby and her arrival. His brow furrowed when I told him that I would have to stay in the hospital for a while. His mouth turned from pout to smile when I told him he would sleepover at Grandma's his first night without Mommy. After much discussion, Harrison confirmed that he was ready to be a big brother, that he would be alright while Mommy was away, and that he was excited for tomorrow to come.

Tonight at dinner, Matt commented that it was a bit sad that this was our last night as the three Combers, and it was definitely bittersweet. The end of one chapter and the beginning of another. Our family commencement.

Libby, we are so excited to meet you. Safe travels tomorrow. You are loved, and we are blessed.